Thoughts

Okay, so...its been awhile since I last wrote. I had some friends in town and finding time to write on the computer was impossible. Wow, I have so many things on my mind! I miss being myself. All day long (and night too!), I'm Mommy. I love my job but its so demanding! I can hear the sighs of agreement out there, all you fellow Mommies! I don't get a chance to hang out with myself. I'm constantly going to play groups, watching Disney channel, playing with my toddler, feeding, changing, feeding, changing--both girls, I could go on and on. Its tiring. I am excited, though, that my Mother is coming to visit this month! Yeah, the calvary is coming! She is such a tremendous help that I am too excited for words! I wish I had enough money to move her in with us and keep her forever! Ha...her husband may have something to say about that!

A side note, my toddler is marching to the Fraggles DVD with her hands on her hips. Too cute! It makes being a Mom very rewarding. I love watching them experience life!

I am heading to girls night out tonight. A dear friend of mine here in VA and I are going to be girls for the night in DC. Not Mommies!! Yeah! I am looking forward to a much needed recharge of my batteries. I've never been to this sort of thing but the pictures look like just what we need. I am too excited to think straight!

Here it goes!

So, I sit in front of my computer....listening to Playhouse Disney on DVR in the background. I love and detest that thing all in one breath. How could I hate DVR? You try having to watch Little Einsteins, Doodlebops, The Wiggles and any other children's show a million and one times over and over. You start singing all the songs, knowing what will happen in each episode because we can't help but watch them. I dream about them, wake up singing the songs and find myself having background music for my daily life. How is it that the children don't get tired of the same old episodes? I know I shouldn't let my children watch so much TV. Some have passed their judgement but I have my own reasons. Sometimes its a lifesaver. It buys me a couple minutes here and there to myself. Notice I said, a couple minutes! For those out there that don't know, I have the priviledge of staying at home to raise my two daughters. Yes, I consider it a blessing and priviledge. I'm by myself for most of the day but at least, I get to experience everything first hand! (i.e. my youngest daughter screaming her head off for the last ten minutes) It has its moments, motherhood. I adore it but find it exhausting! Ha, I know that is an understatement! I long for the hour each day when I hear my husband's truck pulling into the driveway. All three of us get excited. Even the dog snaps out of his lazy zombie-like state and wags his tail. Its probably the highlight of our days. We love when Daddy comes home!
I am trying to spice up our days at home. I've joined a local Moms group and I have met some pretty amazing Moms. I can't tell you how wonderful it is to talk to an adult during daytime hours! They provide a sounding board and are seriously helping my sanity. But more on them some other time. I have my youngest on my lap, scratching my arms with her nails I just cut yesterday and my oldest is calling me to play with her Little People. Just another day in Mommy land.......

Will talk soon.